Monday, December 21, 2009
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Some pictures I took tonight of my christmas decorations.
Jar of candied nuts I gave out as gifts this year
Handmade felt ball ornaments that I made for gifts
Russian Nesting Doll Cards, that I had made to give out, now I want to keep them lol
Truly a silent night.
I am almost embarrassed to say that I haven't read this book or seen the movies yet, and also embarrassed to say I am even considering reading it, but I feel i may actually like it, I read the entire Ann Rice Vampire Chronicles, so I figure why not.
very middle of the road and common sense. and since I don't much care for americas political state, I feel now would be a good time to read this.
I have never read the Da Vinci code, but this one I do want to check out, because it's about the secretive society of Masons, the Masons have always intrigued me.
Don't ask don't ask don't ask lol because I really have no idea WHY I would even want to read this, Politically I don't care for Palin, it's not really her beliefs so much, it's more that I don't think she is in any way shape or form political material,
Bill and I both want to see this and Bradley Cooper....mmmmmmm
This just looks terribly cute
I think I like every movie that Michael Cera has ever been in,
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Financially this year has been hard, with me not getting paid for part of my leave, and our business not doing real well thanks to the economy, we have been scratching literally to get by. Most of Hudsons formula is put on a credit card because guess what? I can't afford 80 bucks a week (yes you red that right) on my salary! but I have to do it, because he needs to eat. but it's times like this that I really wish the whole breastfeeding thing worked out.!!!!
Christmas will be slim this year, and what we do have will be put also on credit, we mainly took care of the little man this year, but I also got a few small things for my parents and my hubby.
At least we will all be together....In the magic of the season.
But my parents.....well that's another story, my mother has had a host of health problems since pretty much her forties, after a major car accident when she was 43, she developed Fibromayalgia, a muscle condition that can cause great pain for no reason, she has dealt with it with a smile on her face for years and years, at 60 she got into another horrible car accident causing severe nerve damage and putting her in the hospital for weeks, she lost full control of her right arm, plus the accident aggravated the fibromayalgia, rendering her sometimes incapable of moving, and on a good day, barley moving, then the following year she got breast cancer, localized, it didn't spread, it was removed and she endured 6 weeks of radiation. She has always had severe depression (which I have also inherited a knack for with the fibromayaglia, but not nearly as bad as hers,they caught mine early)now made worse by the tamoxifen she is taking for the next 5 years ( thankfully they are trying to work that out) she has lung damage from the airbag hitting her so hard, (sarcardosis) ...sigh,.... it's very hard to watch, she is on disability and most of the time keeps a positive attitude, but then there are those horrible days she calls me in tears and I am scared for her, scared to death, thankfully my father is usually home with her. But its even wearing on him, and that causes other issues, all I have ever wanted was for my mother to feel healthy to feel good, all I have ever wanted to give her is a new body. And it's painful as hell not being able to help at all.the only real joy in her world is Hudson, and now she has developed a serious injury in her knee and cannot come to babysit him every wed, like she used to, this really doesn't sit well with her, because one, we live at least 45 minutes away and she barely see's him and two he is her only distraction. So i am trying to take him out on Sundays to her house, to ease that pain until she has knee surgery hopefully in Feb. or March.
this just all weights on me heavily, and around the holidays it's especially hard,then I go home and my husband may be stressed out and short fused about money issues, some days I feel like my world is falling in on me, the only one holding it up is my sweet baby boy, that smile....I tell you what....can pull me out of the deepest funk.
as my parents age, I am becoming more conscious about my own health, there is heart disease on my dads side,cancer on my mothers and diabetes in both. I KNOW I don't take great care of myself. I know I barley exercise, that my cholesterol is probably ridiculous, that I eat too much sugar, don't sleep enough (cant really do anything about that) don't eat well enough and need more vitamins, I want to get healthy now that I am in my 30's, but I am so tired that I never am able to stick to anything, I want to go to the gym after work but I miss my baby so much it kills me, but dammit! I KNOW the risks of not taking care of my self, I know this, so why cant I just do it? Why cant i stick to a diet, keep out of the sugar, and move more? it's frustrating, I attribute alot of it to lack of sleep and hormones.What cant I remember to sit up straight? push my shoulders back, take a freaking vitamin everyday.Some times I feel like giving up, but then I remember that I need to get healthy for my son, he deserves the world and I want to give it to him.
Don't get me wrong despite all of it's issues my life is pretty good, and I do love it, but I don't handle stress very well, and this time of year isnt helping. I love Christmas, i just wish I could enjoy it more........vent over.......
Monday, December 14, 2009
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
So i got on Polyvore and played around a bit. Here is what I would call a current color obsession, BUT I have been intrigued with this color from a very young age. It reminds me of antiques.
My aunt once told me that she hated the color "cobalt blue" because Cobalt treatments are what they used to give cancer patients back in the day,....figure she would take something so beautiful and crap on it.....But it's still my fave.
Paul Costelloe Swing Jacket, Royal Blue, 10, 199 GBP
Cobalt blue bow front skirt, 23 GBP
Blue Guipure Lace Padded Bra, 7 GBP
Rock & Republic Celina (Blue) - Platforms, $279
CC SKYE - Kenzington (Electric Blue) - Bags and Luggage, $699
Monday, December 7, 2009
Here is my wish list for this christmas:
These adorable head bands from Red Velvet Art!!NARS Tokaido Express Nail polish
Gift certificates to bath and Body Works or Victorias Secret so I can buy some smell goods!
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Well in order to do some kick-ass crafts, I must have a room of MY own.
So this is the closest I could come up with, my old craft room is currently occupied as a nursery, so i now have to share the very tiny office space in the next room, with my hubby, Here is what I came up with, I absolutely love it.
Monday, November 23, 2009
I also managed to finish a Christmas project, my felt Christmas trees, Bill said it reminds him of the trees in Rudolph the Red Nose Reindeer, or Jack Frost.
I also finished this fall hand sewn pin.Obviously a bit too late for this year.
Then began working on my ornaments for my Christmas gifts. Oh yeah, I am in felt heaven! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh :) I love Christmas crafts.
We are working on putting up our Christmas decorations, and I can't wait to see the look on lil Hudson's face when he sees the Tree all lit up in it's Christmas glory, I can't wait to take the family photo in front of the tree :) Too fun!
Hopefully my curtains come today, they were shipped on Friday, so they should reach my door soon. It will be so nice to have a little color in the house!
I also hung out with Julia in the Gordon Arts District yesterday, we went to the Room Service Christmas shop and Kitsch City, had some coffee and a HUGE chocolate chip muffin....
Well hopefully today will go by fast, as will whats left of the work week (THREE DAYS!!! WOOHOO! Then I am off for the Holiday!)
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Don't you LOVE this color combo???
So elegant a beautiful!
Aside from redecorating; I am also starting up Christmas projects, making felt cone shaped trees, felt ornaments (for gifts) and this awesome felt mobile I saw online.
Would love to hang this in hudsons room!